The best thing about hard times is the getting to the other side. The older I get the more I realize that nothing lasts forever. That some day, I will be able to look back and see that I survived and more importantly that I have reached safety. The kicker to it all is that I have gained perspective and a launching pad for others in whatever area I was just challenged in. I can't help myself, I always want to know how everything in my life might be valuable to someone else. It is actually an awesome thing most of the time. Occasionally, I get off kilter and the pendulum swings too far and I will focus on "them" more than me or my tribe. In a very rare instance, I will disconnect from the benefit of someone else and focus on me, myself, and I. Balance is a beautiful thing and part of this quest. It is a place I am planning to fall into and rest.
So, today I am considering the other side and what that means. In my personal life, getting past poop issues with my son and contradicting conversations with my 5 year old would be a great starting point! I am attempting to see the unusual and beneficial from these things. After all they will grow up and never be back at these "creative" moments in life, right? I look at my 16 year old and try hard to remember her interesting oddities. They were less intense than the other two. She did things like believe she knew Spanish and engaged in "conversation" with people who actually spoke the language. That made for awkward times. Here this little blond thing is chatting gibberish fully believing it should make sense to the hearer. Not so much! Hilarious to remember though. I am intensely blessed to have an amazing girl....she is inspirational as a human being. All three of my small ones are phenomenally made to be who they are, right for this moment in history!
How I got there, I am not sure....but onto the other side! I think I hit on something earlier with perspective. Everything I do, everyone I meet, and every challenge I face is seen through the lens I choose to use. The old saying "If life gives you lemons, just make lemonade" is a true statement of freedom. If drama is what I desire or accept....then drama is what I will face. If peace and love is foremost important, then a sigh of release is what will come to me. Of course life deals blows unexpected that require a new level of maturity, but those are much easier dealt with when I am already resting. Resting is not first response for me at this point, unfortunately. I do believe though, that it is possible to acquire. All I need has been provided for. Everything. On the other side of pain and confusion is freedom and liberty. A new altitude above the here and now. Today must be faced and lived.....with joy and laughter. Sometimes that is much easier said than done, but it really is possible. A friend of mine just had a baby at home, with no drugs, no epidural......and in one of the hardest moments, she laughed and kept laughing. She and everyone in the room found the joy in the most painful moment. Freedom to be alive and well was released and power followed. The reality that often, the most painful creates the most incredible and beautiful! That speaks to me.....how about you?
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I'm here :). I've thought a lot about pain...........