I was working out this morning, listening to my music and overall loving life. I find myself in a state of ponderment (my word) when I am engaged in putting the "flesh" down if you will. I think about some important things, some random things, and often times just stupid things. Today I was considering a lot, and in those moments I, for some reason, started thinking about the phrase "have your cake and eat it too." I think the older I have gotten, the more I have figured out, or have had it explained to me, what random phrases like that mean or where they came from. Everything and everyone has a history....fabulous or horrendous...it is history.
So back to the phrase in question. I began to think about having a lot of cash. I know, seemingly shallow, but if you knew all that my husband and I have before to accomplish, you would understand. Anyway, so I was thinking about how often times people who walk into the destiny of stockpiles of greenbacks, also hit the "issues" that come with all of it. The taxes, the greed, the wanting distant relatives, the demands of so much and so many. Then I actually said to the Lord " God, I want my cake and I want to eat it too!!" How ridiculous and spoiled am I??? Seriously though this was my heart in the matter. Who do you know that if you were to give them cake, wouldn't want to eat it???? Seriously? If you give me cake, heck ya I am going to dig in! I am a lover of many things sweet good. Not all things...but many. I am a bit of a sweet good snob too....I like really good stuff, but who doesn't? Anyway, whether there is sugar involved or not, the question remains, why can't I eat it too?
I realized that I am expecting negative ramifications from the goodness given to me in life. Yikes, I hate that. I hate that I am thinking that when there is the unfolding of destiny in our lives necessary to advance in our dreams, I am still in a place of anticipating the inevitable dropping of the other shoe!
Where does this leave me? Well, honestly at this very moment I am very sad that what I wrote above has truth. On the other hand, my spirit is alive with the possibility of encounter with Truth that will hugely outweigh the junk still left behind. Everybody has a different "cake" in their life. Mine is just partially what I shared. I have so much brewing and churning on the inside of my being, I cannot wait to watch it all unfold. Meanwhile I am left to chew on this: the eating of the cake is up to me. Whether there is ice cream on the side, or if it is doused with ganache....if it goes untouched, the fault is mine. What I miss out on in life is the choice I make. With the cake comes the responsibilities of the calories and the fat.....so, I think I will just ingest and then hit the gym!!!!
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